I love all of the seasons for different reasons.
Spring is a time when things that have been hidden for so long begin to remind us that the circle of life continues. New growth appears after the cold, bleakness, even apparent death of the Winter months.
Take the crocus above. It will have been planted as a corm, laid buried & hidden for months & then appeared: first the new shoots, then the stalk & leaves, then the bud & finally the flower.
What we may have thought was dead actually wasn’t.
Where we had seen nothing happen above the surface, roots were growing down long before the first shoots appeared above ground.
Our life is so often like the seasons.
For those of us who are undergoing changes, many of those changes start deep within us, long before external changes are seen.
Time spent alone, wrestling with problems, wrestling with ourselves & agonising over others can seem like Winter’s bleakness.
We can feel as if we are dying inside: confusion, anger, guilt, self-doubt & many other emotions stir around as we try to wrestle with them & put them into perspective. Sometimes that works; sometimes it doesn’t.
As a person who has battled with these things a lot over the recent weeks, can I encourage you not to give up hope.
As a Christian I am no different to anyone else; I have the same struggles, I have the same doubts, I can have the same fears. I am human!
But I also know from experience that a lot of these seemingly negative things are not only helpful but also necessary; they help to shape who I am.
In short, there is hope! For me hope isn’t a hit & miss, perhaps type of word; Hope is a certainty.
I know from experience that the most significant, life-changing & life-shaping growth is hidden for long before others ever see it! That growth takes place inside me, alongside all the daily stress, strains & crap that life can throw at me. Yet, despite these pressures, hope gives me a foundation on which to stand. That hope for me is based on the fact that God is greater than me & knows what I need (& need to do). If what I believe does not change who I am then it is nothing more than a space-filler; something I embrace or do to appease my conscience. I believe that my faith is more about the person it helps me to be rather than anything I do.
If you, like me are experiencing turmoil at the moment could it be that there are changes taking place which allow us to put down roots before the external evidence of that growth is seen.
I find that a bolt-hole or place to spend time alone, often in silence, is a great way that allows myself time to recharge & get things in perspective. It’s also in those times of quiet (which are the hardest to get & hardest to stay focussed) that I am able to grow, change & develop.
I hope this makes sense. I’m always very happy to hear your experiences.
Take care until next time …